Saturday, August 11, 2007

It's recommitment time again already!



OK, so I've been slipping up. My low-fat raw with mono-meals all day deal has hit the skids... Bummer, I know. Serious bummer, actually, because during the three days that I actually did follow my own dietary rules I lost a whopping 7 lbs.! Of course, I have since put three back on but at least I have finally learned how to rapidly lose weight on raw food. So, I'm recommitting to my raw wonder plan again, and again, and again, if I have to. I am so totally doing this! Last week I was flying on a raw high and felt so good I think I freaked myself out... Plus, for some weird reason, I always start to flip out and sabotage my own progress when I start to lose noticeable amounts of weight. I think that in the 1.5 years since I have learned about raw food I have lost and regained the same 20 lbs. at least 10 TIMES!!! That means if I had just stuck with what I was doing I could have lost like 200lbs. by now! And since I only need to lose 120 lbs. or so, that would mean I lost 80 lbs. more than my original goal! Madness, pure madness! Does anyone else out there suffer from this same form of raw retardation? Or am I as alone as I feel? Well, at least I have maintained my original 30 lbs. of raw weight loss... And of course, I'm not suicidally depressed anymore... So that's not too shabby after all...

5 comments:

Anonymous said...

No, you're not alone in this strange self-sabotage endeavour. I find that as soon as I have lost noticeable amounts of weight (especially on raw where you get the extreme "glow") and my hubby and parents start to notice, I get comfortable, as well as a certain feeling of pride which makes me slip right back into those self-defeating habits. I believe it's a symptom of perfectionism. So now, I eschew perfectionism and just try to do what I can do when I can do it. That seems to ease up those self-inflicted must-be-perfect "mind" symptoms and I just get on with it.

Keep up the good work. Thanks for the inspiration!

Juanita
Cape Town
SA

Connie said...

It's time to talk to the hawk darlin' :-) Big things are on your horizon, you just need to step up and accept your gifts. Giving is nice, but receiveing is wondr~full! LoL! Let go of the fear of being all you can be.

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In Love,
Connie

Connie said...

I just visited the RFC site and "saw" you there! LoL! I could even see which thread you were viewing! Weird, huh, we are separated by so much land distance, yet we were also in the same "place" at the same time. I have a hard time getting my head wrapped around that sometimes.

Have a lovely day, "see" you soon!
Connie

Queen B said...

Shout out to Juanita in Cape Town!
And big love to Connie in Florida!
Love to you all and thanks for such big pearls of wisdom...
So much love and light to you all!
One love...

Amy said...

I totally know what you're talking about. I never had this problem until I started trying to numb my emotions with food. It is very frustrating! Having support from others helps... good luck breaking through! You can do it! Keep digging and working and you'll get better and better!