Monday, September 10, 2007

Birthday cake blues...


So I made it seven whole blissful 100% raw days and was feeling great, high and happy. Then I ate a piece of Felix's cooked birthday cake and that was all she wrote... (this is not the first time that I have been derailed by a birthday cake...)I feel like such an ass. Just when I start making some real progress, I go and blow it. So, I have been struggling to get back to raw and it isn't really working, plus it is the new moon and that is a tough time of the month for me, too. But, I was reading about his new moon in Virgo and it is supposed to be a great time for me to begin healing my health/weight issues. Speaking of that, why do people automatically assume that just because someone is obese they are ill. I am very, very heavy, over 120 lbs. overweight, BUT- I haven't been sick or to the doctor (except for chilbirth and a lyme tick bite) in nearly 10 YEARS!!!! My blood pressure is fine. I don't have diabetes. I have no digestion or gynecological issues. In short if you were to give me a physical and didn't know my weight you would consider me to be extremely healthy. I am just fat. And, by the way, I only lost like one pound during my stellar 100% week. So I ordered Dr. Doug's 80/10/10 book and am going to see what I think of that... I have an intuitive feeling that my liver is not happy digesting all the fat that I have been eating. We shall see.

4 comments:

Connie said...

Join us on Banana Island, where 811rv is the law of the land! :)
http://bananaislandgetaway.blogspot.com/

Big Hugs!
Connie

ann said...

queen b - i always find that a few minutes of meditation helps me stay on a raw diet. although it can be difficult... impossible?... with children around!

good luck.
ann

Annette said...

Be gentle with yourself. You are not serving yourself by being mad at yourself for not eating 100% raw.

Four years ago, I owned the rawmama domain name and was obsessed with being "100% raw". I felt great physically, but mentally I was stressed and judgemental. I have since changed my focus to being "healthy" and find it easy to eat high raw. I allow myself a piece of birthday cake (or whatever), if I want, but most of the time, I just don't.

Good luck, you are a beautiful person, making a difference with your honesty and light. Shine on!

Queen B said...

Thanks for all the love ladies!
Peace and big blessings to all of you...