Green Smoothie Experience... Day 2

So far so good darlings!
Just wanted to post this recipe real quickly-like.
Do yourself a favor and make this at once!

Royal Purple Smoothie

makes 2 qts.

5 Tbsp. shelled hempseeds
2/3 c. goji berries soaked overnight in 1 qt. water
2 T. green powder (mine was a homemade concoction of barley grass powder, spirulina, crystal manna, etc.)
1 T. honey
2 T. flax seed oil
1 lb. frozen blueberries

add to blender:
hempseeds & goji berry soaking water, reserve gojis, and blend for 1 minute

add to blender:
reserved goji berries and everything else

blend until very smooth, sometimes as long as two minutes.

Enjoy and go to antioxidant heaven.

Green Smoothie Experience... Day One

It has been almost a year since I last posted here. Many incredible things have happened, maybe too many. I intend to share them with you as we go along, but right now I just want to focus on green smoothies. I have embarked on a new adventure, my very own green smoothie experience. Green Smoothies make me feel great. I feel the best when I consume mostly/only green smoothies. My goal right now is to do 30 days of exclusively green smoothies. We will see how it goes.

Here is the recipe for my current concoction:

1 c. frozen pineapple
1 c. frozen peaches
2 frozen bananas
3 huge leaves kale
1 T. raw, local honey
1 T. coconut oil
2 T. flax meal
1 t. vanilla
1/4 t. sea salt
2 c. water

blend, blend, blend some more...

love and blessings all the time...

Wheat is not sweet for me to eat...

This has been an interesting month to say the very least... Aside from big doses of everyday life drama, I had some real revelations about me and food. I started out the month of January by posting my (not the most flattering) full body pictures and my weight, which was extremely embarrassing, humiliating, humbling, etc... After I made the plunge and did that I had a big ole emotional meltdown, forayed into cooked food land, did some major binging and gained about 8 lbs. putting me at 293 lbs!!! Fortunately, with the support of many cyber darlings, I eventually dealt with the whole ordeal and was starting to feel pretty great. By mid-month I was back to 100% raw and by about the 24Th of January I got down to 281.5 lbs... I had lost about 12 lbs. in 10 days eating raw cheesecake everyday!!! I was very happy. But then, just when I was getting raw full swing, money issues came to call. I am usually not too worried if the almighty dollars get too tight as I am not much of a consumer and am pretty good at stretching a buck. However, these money issues were extreme... The guy that Felix has been working for the last three weeks decided not to pay Felix the balance that he owed... Not a small balance by the way, enough to pay for all of our bills including the mortgage and groceries and still have some left over. Also, let me mention that the non-paying guy lives in a $500,000 house and he and his wife both drive very big, diplomat style Mercedes... His reason for not paying Felix was that he didn't have the money... So, needless to say, our grocery selections haven't been the best and I have gained back 4.5 lbs. eating bread, cooked starch, etc., and I am back to exactly the weight I started off the month at- 286 lbs! HOWEVER, I am very impressed with myself because I did not binge at all. I think that the 4.5 lbs. weight gain is basically just my body reacting to food that it doesn't digest well, especially wheat... And I am definately not going to let this whole deal get the best of me... I have managed to scrape together enough food to do a green smoothie feast for the few remaining days of January. We will just have to wait and see what kind of results I get.

Big love to all of you and keep on keepin' on!

This picture was taken the same day as one of those that I dreaded posting in the beginning of January. Amazingly, I don't feel weird about posting this one at all. Thanks to all of the amazing cyber love and support I recieved during my meltdown at the beginning of this month I feel much more loving and accepting tword myself and my wonderful resiliant body! I am sending big, huge, heartfelt gratitude out to each and everyone of you who reached out and helped me during my recent dark days! Your love has healed me!!! xxoo!

On the road again?

So I didn't go grocery shopping like I planned but I have been raw all day and I feel good about that.

Today I ate/drank:
mango/banana/kale green smoothie
vitamin c water
very small salad with miso-lime dressing (the dressing was nasty, too bitter)
6 dates 3 Tbsp. almond butter
cacao almond maca mylkshake (this is medicine, I swear)

I have been noticing how superfoods, especially maca and cacao, taste divinely delicious to me lately. I used to only eat them because they made me feel so much better and helped to lift my depression but now I LOVE the flavor of them. I'm starting to think I could live on cacao almond mylkshakes and shots of wheatgrass juice... I won't try it, I promise... But I could, I know it.

I miss Florida. It is getting really cold here in Connecticut and the gray skies are depressing. I miss living in my own house with all of it's feng shui-ness, unique paint colors and most of all I miss the beautiful beach. I could really use some sunshine and blue water swimming. I know that I shouldn't whine considering how blessed I am and how bright my future is. It's just that the construction downstairs is going really, really slowly and poor Felix, tropical man that he is, has snow paranoia and also has about had it with all of us living in my Mom's house, even though she is a living doll. Mom did say we could go back to Florida for the winter and then come back here and finish the project in the spring. I am sort of resistant to that plan because, frankly, I just want the blessed thing done. I am ready to get the center up and running and lets just face it, patience is not usually one of my virtues... We will see what happens. I do love the winter citrus in Florida and one could easily spend a small fortune on produce in CT in the wintertime and still practically starve because the quality is not so great... It's just that all this back and forth wishy-washiness makes me feel like such a d-RAW-ma queen...

I'm back!

Been all raw for a few days now and am feeling much better... I had been eating mostly cooked food for the past couple weeks and my depression came back full force and with a vengeance (along with 15 pounds...) I have had a really rough time of it and feel like I have been to hell and back. I was so down, so low and then just decided that I'd had enough and went back to raw. By the morning of the second day all traces of the sadness/depression had left me. Every time this happens I am amazed... So here I am and raw I intend to remain. Eating cooked food just isn't worth it.

Today I enjoyed:
iced chai with raw almond milk
vanilla tea with raw honey
mango/date/almond milk smoothie (WOW! this was a lovely thing!)
apple, Asian pear, avocado, pecans, raisins (snacked on these all afternoon)
green soup with walnuts, spinach, red pepper and tomato (another good creation)

I have decided to document my food intake here daily as well as any observations...
Love and blessings to you all!

Off on a lark...

I have been cooking like crazy...
Fall just came upon us quite suddenly and Felix's brother, Brian, was here for 2 weekends helping out with the construction and I made loads of delicious cooked food! Funny thing is, of all the food creations I've made lately, a fruit salad of honeydew, golden kiwi, and huge red globe grapes which I de-seeded lovingly, by hand, was my favorite, by a landslide... I even wanted to make it again later, but had run out of fruit entirely...
I think I am having some identity issues...
I'm craving fruits and green smoothies and cacao drinks and gardenburger in red cabbage leaves. So that is a good thing, no?
I've been reminding myself lately that I am what I eat, and so I should take care to eat beautiful, vibrant, natural, foods.
I'm off to dreamland now. I have a feeling you will hear more from me soon...

Decadent Diva am I!

So for the last few days I have been re-in-love with coconut oil. I had been using it all the time in Florida. It seems really appropriate there... In Connecticut, not so much. Well, lately I have been feeling more fatigued then usual, and because I have this really weird bug bite (what I suspect is a tick bite... I know, I know, I've already been treated for Lyme disease twice...)I decided to start in again with the coconut oil because it is supposed to help your immune system fight off all manner of cooties. So I did and then decided that I would put the oil in my smoothies because I don't love to eat it straight up in a big, yucky, greasy glop. Who can blame me? So, of course, the results are amazing! I'm feeling great and have much more energy AND- my smoothies are DELICIOUS! Man, oh man, I have been creating such decadent, creamy, smooth creations and I am loving it... The coconut oil cuts down on my hunger tremendously, so I have been able to eat a diet of mostly creamy smoothies (aka MYLKSHAKES! I mean who am I trying to fool here?), cake, pate' with salad and, every one's favorite, ice cream, and then more cake. I don't eat much of any of these things, a normal sized portion (big breakthrough...) and I eat about every 4 hours or so. I call it the diva diet! And- I have lost 4 more pounds! I didn't want to look because I was saying to myself (in my head- not out loud) "Why would I even begin to imagine that I would lose weight when all I have been eating is ultra rich princess diva food?" But guess what darlings- I did. Four pounds in four days and I even ate cooked food for dinner a couple times and I have my period! Unheard of folks... Let me just tell ya. I think I am really on to something here. I am feeding myself ultra satisfying, super beautiful, super foods fit for a Queen and thriving... I guess that is just one more piece of evidence that I am, in fact, Queen B! Feed yourself like a queen, turn into a queen. I really does seem to be that simple. Thank God/dess! Here's to all of our raw royalty out there, all you Dukes, Duchesses, Princes, Princesses, Kings and Queens, Empresses, High Priestesses, and various Lords and Ladies... Big raw love to you all!

What?

I really do try, in this blog at least, not to dwell on my ridiculous behavior regarding food. Today, I will digress... I mean, seriously, I ate Carvel Ice Cream Cake! It was a three year old friends birthday party (Happy Birthday Beauty Queen!) and I just had to have a piece of cake... Now I know that any "normal" person who happened to be reading this blog would be like "Whatever lady, just get over it! It's just a piece of cake! You were at a birthday party for heavens sake!" Yeah, yeah, I know! But, you see, I DON'T WANT CARVEL ICE CREAM CAKE IN MY LIFE ANYMORE WHAT-SO-EVER! Why does disgusting, chemical laden, loaded with refined sugar, skanky non-food even appeal to me? Am I punishing myself? Am I rewarding myself by poisoning myself? Is my body suicidal? I have such a strong desire to be a total raw vegan, that means NO COOKED FOOD, never mind nasty crap non-food. I really am devoted to my health and spirituality and also to the health of the planet, so why is this so difficult? Ever day when I wake up I intend to be all raw, all healthy, all day but by 4 pm (or even before if I have had a stressful day) I am into the cooked food and feeling like a loser again! By 10pm I am plotting my raw-strategy for the next day! It is total obsessive weirdness... And so here I am, sitting at the computer, pouring my heart out to you with a belly full of heavy, not-digesting food that I made for the rest of the family for dinner but managed to eat a hearty portion of my own damn self! I often fantasize about how my days would go if I had my dream life, imagining myself doing yoga in the early morning sunshine, juicing and preparing divine living foods and enjoying them, beautifully presented, sitting at the table eating with a knife and fork like a human, giving myself mud baths in the summer sunshine, meditating, teaching Lincoln to chant (which he is actually really good at naturally, it seems) teaching and serving others on their own paths to wellness... Truthfully, the only thing stopping me from doing any of this is myself and it has got to stop! I really have no other obstacles to my dream life other than my own self. I feel so ungrateful for not making the most of my abundant blessings in life. I think it is time to get out the EFT technique again. I toyed with it this past winter and was having remarkable results and I think that it just freaked me out and I stopped doing it, not knowing how to handle my new found peace and calmness. It was unnerving, severely. Sometimes I think that it is just because I have been seriously overweight for my whole life, or at least since my parents got divorced when I was seven, and I just don't know what to expect out of life in a slim body. It is like I am hiding from myself or something.

Smooth, green morning...

The wind is blowing like crazy here! The hawks, turkey vultures, and what I believe is a *!!!bald eagle!!!*, are soaring over the river on the big gusts of breeze. They are having such a blast! Maybe I'll fly in my dreams tonight...
I have been staying with the liquids, juice, green smoothies, and blended salads. I finally feel like I actually might be digesting and absorbing some nutrition. What a concept! I'm feeling much better and am getting ready to go to the farmers market, health food store where my darling friend is currently working, and then to the Indian grocery store. What fun! Linc and I are looking forward to this hunting and gathering of the groceries expedition. Wish me happy mango hunting!
Love, blessings, and massive prosperity for all!

I had to take a nap...

So long story short, last night I ate lasagna, which contained white flour noodles and dairy cheese. And then I drank coffee, with white sugar and half and half. I didn't even really like it, any of it. I mean it was good, but whatever. So I am taking that as a good sign that my tastes are changing along with the fact that this morning I felt so sick that I immediately put myself on green smoothies with only one kind of fruit and one kind of green. All day, along with some ginger tea and a nap and by 6 pm I was feeling more normal. So then my friends came over and I cooked dinner, not cheesy and noodley but still vegan cooked, and I ate it! Just ate it without any second thoughts at all. I consumed such beautiful pure food all day to make up for last nights transgressions and then go and do it again tonight! I can't believe that I used to eat like this, heavy cheesy food, all the time! It literally makes me sick now. Especially the dairy! At least my reaction to this non-raw food is showing me that I am, in fact, detoxifying and my body is getting healthier with my high raw vegan diet, even if the weight is slow to come off. I am healing. I can feel it.
Also- I made and enjoyed a really delicious blended salad this evening. I think I finally have them figured out now... I just make them like I was making a salad, dressing ingredients and all, and then just blend it in the Vita-mix and delicioso! I am definitely going to be including more of these into my diet. What a lovely way to enjoy my greens.
Hopefully tomorrow will be a better day involving more self discipline... Man, if I only had a dollar for every time I have said that!

Gorgeous in green...

My darling son, Lincoln, 4 years old, doesn't especially like vegetables. This baffles me, as Felix and I both love them, and I made all of Linc's baby food from scratch and always included a wide variety of veggies. He loved his veggie baby food. Since then, however, it has been all down hill, especially in the land of leafy greens. Until, you guessed it, green smoothies. They have recently experienced a Renaissance in our house. And Lincoln has jumped right on the bandwagon! Thank God/dess! I made an especially great one today, even sans bananas. It was a great combo of mango (of course), nectarines, and baby spinach. I added a little bit of honey and Lincoln LOVED it. Drank a big glass and begged for more. Hallelujah! Now let us all pray this sudden burst of green enthusiasm lasts.