Cooking- a bad idea...

OK, so I was feeling so great, so confident, so invincible...
I decided that it would be no big deal to cook for my family, I am after all a natural foods chef. Big mistake. Huge. So long story short, I ate some cooked food. A plate of tofu/veggie dish (very good) and a homemade carrot flaxseed muffin (also damn good). Not worth it at all. I think I could actually feel my vibration slllloooowww wwwaaaayyyy dooooowwwwnnnn...

So where do I go from here... I think I just go back to raw 100% and don't look back. I think I also need to stop using cooking for my family as an excuse to cook/eat cooked food. It has such a profoundly negative effect on me. I still can't imagine why I choose to eat it, nevermind cook it for those I love. Anyhow, I'm choosing to see this as a learning experience and move forward tword my goals without constantly brow-beating myself and feeling bad about it.

I did make a great halvah smoothie last night. It was supreme, nearly divine actually. I made it just after I ate the cooked food and it definately derailed what could have been a full on cooked binge. That is how I operated in the past, unfortunately.

It is raining all lovely like here in Florida. You can almost hear the plants whispering their gratitude. I know I am most certainly greatful.